Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Reset? and a Remembrance.

Sunday as I was leaving church the idea came to me.

                    Maybe I'm not "lost" Maybe I am being reset. 

Reset to take on better things. To drop the old and make room for better.

I like this idea. so Now I need to allow that to happen. Get up in the morning ready for any new adventure ahead. I guess I'm not totally ready yet because I'm not there yet. I still have a bit to learn. But I am trying. And my own use of time needs to be addressed and adjusted. But thats all part of resetting right?




The Drapers.
Val Draper was my Bishop in Heber. He was a fantastic man. The youth loved him and the adults did too. He was fun and friendly and was usually the start of some massive water fights. Including on Trek where he smuggled in a pump water gun and hammered all the kids as they crossed the river. He had a "Moses Moment" when on the first silent River crossing he escorted his sweet wife across first then walked back to the middle of the river, planted his walking stick in and oversaw the crossing of the youth and leaders. My oldest daughter was a tiny new beehive and got caught in a current. He reached out and grabbed her as she was going under and escorted her safely to the other side before going back to the center for the rest.

If there was one person better than Bishop, It was his beautiful wife Kathy. She was a Strong, Silent type.  She had a soft spoken way about her but a fierce testimony. She was always serving and was the kindest person. She was my Visit teaching companion. And I was honored to have that time with her.

A year ago, Sunday May 6, 2012  They attended the baby blessing of one of their adored grandchildren in Eagle Mountain. That afternoon, Matt was out jogging and said there mush be a bad wreck in the canyon. A bunch of ambulances and cop cars were heading out that way.

Later we had a knock on our door. An upset daughter of the YW president across the street told us that the accident was the Drapers. Sister Draper had died and Bishop was in critical condition. They had 2 grand children with them. An 11 year old girl and a Baby girl. Both being taken to hospitals.

Soon all the ward/neighborhood was outside. Walking around letting other neighbors know. Sharing concern, stories and tears.  I knew in my mind that Bishop would not want to let her go without him. They had met in High school and married soon after he completed his mission. He adored her. She loved him. and it was a Love story worthy of a book. Soon word came that He had died and the Baby had as well.

We had to gather. We had to be together as a ward family. We met that evening in our chapel to remember. As I sit here I am crying at the memory of the feeling of that room. You have never seen a fuller more silent chapel. (until their funeral that is. It was a 3 hour wait in the chapel for the viewing.)

The first councilor of our Stake Presidency had been to the hospital. He was able to sit with Bishop after he had passed. He said he'd had the distinct feeling that Bishop was allowed to choose. I knew he couldn't let his beloved wife go.

Now a year later they still touch my life. I still smile at my mental images of him. Of the annual YM/YW Bishops water fight.  



Yesterday without realizing it was the anniversary. My oldest and I were sharing memories of these 2 wonderful people. As we came out of a building there was a sudden down pour. We hurried to our car and didn't think much of it. Later I was reminded of the date and I realized the down pour was not a coincidence. If I had realized sooner I would have danced in the rain and shaken a fist heavenword and smiled as I yelled "Bishop!" 

I Love you both and miss you terribly.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

My testimony today

My dear friend and I met the men who would become our husbands within months of each other. We were married a week apart. They struggled to have kids. They adopted 3 then were surprised when they were able to get pregnant with 2 more. The older of which was baptized yesterday.

LaDena's husband Mark has battled cancer (sarcoma) the past 4 years. With multiple tumors and a "heroic" level of treatments. This past month he has been unable to breath. The lining around his lung has filled with fluid. Every other day they removed 2+ liters of fluid till finally they put in a port so they could drain at home.

The next part I want to say is copied and pasted excerpts from Ladena's blog.

This afternoon he surprised me by stating he wanted to teach his class. I immediately thought "no way!" but realized that this is so important to him that he had prayed for strength to do it in our family prayer. I knew not to argue with his decision and said that I would go with him and make sure he was alright. I helped him get dressed for church. He slowly buttoned up his white shirt and adjusted his tie. He looked me in the eye and said, "I love wearing the uniform for the army of God. To be called to serve Him and teach His message." That is so Mark. Of course, that made me cry. He was exhausted just going up the stairs into the church. He meditated right up until he gave the lesson, which was "Are you prepared to meet God?" I brought a pack of tissues, because this was not going to be easy to discuss right now (for me). It was beautiful. Most of the lesson was a discussion of how to balance complacency and zeal in the gospel.

This man is within weeks of leaving this life. He is in constant pain and can barely move by himself. Yet teaching this lesson was So important to him.

Each week we come to church. We hear a lesson again. We sort of have the same discussion. It is easy to become complacent. I'm not sure if it was said in Relief Society recently or where I heard it. But someone said. "You can't eat one meal and be satisfied for life" We repeat things for them to find place in our hearts.

Marks words have stuck with me all week. "I love wearing the uniform for the army of God. To be called to serve Him and teach His message." Do we realize as we get dressed each Sunday, or even every day that we are a member of the "Army of God" do we pay attention to that uniform? Are we representing him well? And do we realize that We are called to serve Him? To teach His word.

This morning Marks Facebook post was "Bucket list complete". Yesterday Mark was wheeled into the church dressed in white. With the help of neighbors/ friends he was helped into the font so he could baptize his daughter.

I am so thankful for the lesson this has been to me. This is a true testimony of enduring to the end.

I am trying to relocate the me I lost a while ago. I'm trying to relocate my talents and interests. But God is on my side. He loves me. He wants me to succeed. But he will teach me some lessons along the way so that I can come through stronger. And be a more valiant member of His army. So that I can better serve Him and teach His word.